Hook:
We're all in search of something, all just trying to get by
most days i spend them dreaming. Dreaming of a better life.
The grass is always greener when you look to the other side
so most days i spend them dreaming. Dreaming of a better life.

It's a shame the darkness came once to overpower my brain
caused the pain that still remain to try and make me cut my veins.
See, of failure i'm afraid. I'll lose it all and be to blame
coz i'm clouded once again by all i know i'll never gain.
I'm smiling on the surface but i'm really not ok
knowing you're top of the list, the first thing to walk away
to leave me broken on the floor without a single word to say,
just mumbling incoherent sounds by the door just where i lay.
Shit, i slipped. I gave my heart up to the pad
and now i don't know if i'm ever gonna get it back
since the day that i progressed and began to rap,
putting blood, sweat and tears into all of my tracks.
Shit tell me this - how the fuck can i relax
when i look at my life and only see what it lacks?
When i only see my problems and wait for their attacks
and i'm scared to move forward in case they get me in the back?

HOOK x2

Most days i wake up with tears still stinging my eyes,
surprised i survived yet another hellish night.
Shit why lie? It seems all i do is cry
scream up at the sky "PLEASE GOD LET ME DIE!"
like i don't wanna be alive. I just want off this ride
coz i see no healing light and feel a darkness deep inside
it's been chasing me from the start. I still see no place to hide
from the grip up on my shoulders telling me to grip the mic.
Through the tears that i taste and on these pages i confess.
I could smoke up an ounce and still feel just as stressed
but in all honesty now, no i don't wanna stay depressed,
counting down these minutes of the days that i've got left.
I've had it with the fighting, i just wanna take a rest.
I'm sick of always slipping every time i take a step,
i'm sick of these bars coz they aint helped me yet
they aint helped me sort this mess that still rise inside my head

HOOK x2

I'd apologise to my friends and to my family if i knew
really where the fuck to start, but i'm sill without a clue.
I mean you don't even try but i know that it's you
who notice when i'm down and who guide my way through.
Never fail to lift me up to make me feel like i got value,
make me see i'm not alone when i'm walking down this avenue,
make me see that i can trust people and open up to you.
Make me see that there's a light slowly coming into view.
So maybe that's the only reason that i need to wake up
with a smile on my face, a new positive outlook
on what i need to do, the things i need to shake up
to change the path i'm heading down put solid ground under foot.
Maybe the real answers to my questions can't be found
so it's time i slowed down stopped and took a look around.
Just enjoy the moment now, close my eyes take in the sounds
even though it feels most days i'm simply not allowed!

HOOK x2